Saturday, February 27, 2010

A Silent Love


Sitting in the very corner of the cafeteria, I had my eyes on you. In fact, it was in this rather dark and lonely corner that I had most of my being, waiting patiently for your coming, catching glimpses of you from afar, and having our eyes meet and getting that butterfly feeling........

You were so beautiful with your flowing long dark hair. I especially love to see your sparkling black eyes of wisdom and compassion. And those beautiful white teeth and bright smile. And your facial expressions and gestures. Oh! if only you knew my heart was for you.

I was jealous of your group of friends sitting there with you. They looked so happy talking, smiling and laughing with you, with the holding of hands, hugging and teasing.......

But I could see that they were only interested in telling you more of their stories, feelings and things. Yet you were so cool and calm, carefully listening to them and responding once in a while.

But sometimes, I could catch tints of sadness in your eyes when you turned your sight away and looking around. Sometimes you looked at me intensely with a sweet but helpless smile. Oh! How I wished I could take you away and dispel your boredom. But very quickly you returned your attention to your friends again and responded dutifully.

If only I could sit there beside you and behold your eyes. If only I can see through those eyes to meet your ardent, sincere, and generous heart. It would be nice. Oh! If only you knew this heart was for you.

Sometimes we had a long and longing look and an understanding smile. Oh! How my heart felt for you. I could feel my body floating on the air.... If only you could sit here with me for a while. It would be nice. Oh! If only you knew I had kept my love for you.

Many years had passed and we had not met again. We had moved to many different places. We had not had news from one another, for we had never responded to one another........ But every time when I was alone in a cafeteria, I was looking around for you. If only you knew.......

We finally met....... in the same cafeteria again. We enjoyed watching one another. Then you turned your attention.... to your children. Sometimes, your friends and their family joined you. They looked so happy talking, smiling and laughing with you.

You still turned your sight away and looking around. I could still catch tints of sadness in your eyes.......

But you were very far away.......from me.

It was just a silent love....... I told myself... and sighed.

4 comments:

EcoVeganic said...

This was beautifully written, I think we all can relate to this post. I know I have experienced "silent love" before myself.

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Vixen said...

That really was very lovely and well written.

The Twitterer said...

nicely written. they say that unrequited love is hard but it's harder to love and not having the courage to tell the person you love about what you feel.

hard to live with what-ifs....

Jacqueline said...

Excellent writing style. I enjoyed it. I could actually see her sitting there with her friends. :-)